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  Why couldn’t he be self-confident and ready? And, leaning his chin on his hands, he imagined the ride he might have had with her. A week-end was but a week-end, and he had missed three hours of it. Did he know any one except himself who would have been such a flat? He did not.

  He dressed for dinner early, and was first down. He would miss no more. But he missed Fleur, who came down last. He sat opposite her at dinner, and it was terrible—impossible to say anything for fear of saying the wrong thing, impossible to keep his eyes fixed on her in the only natural way; in sum, impossible to treat normally one with whom in fancy he had already been over the hills and far away; conscious, too, all the time, that he must seem to her, to all of them, a dumb gawk. Yes, it was terrible! And she was talking so well—swooping with swift wing this way and that. Wonderful how she had learned an art which he found so disgustingly difficult. She must think him hopeless indeed!

  His sister’s eyes fixed on him with a certain astonishment, obliged him at last to look at Fleur; but instantly her eyes, very wide and eager, seeming to say: “Oh! for goodness’ sake!” obliged him to look at Val; where a grin obliged him to look at his cutlet—that, at least, had no eyes, and no grin, and he ate it hastily.

  “Jon is going to be a farmer,” he heard Holly say; “a farmer and a poet.”

  He glanced up reproachfully, caught the comic lift of her eyebrow just like their father’s, laughed, and felt better.

  Val recounted the incident of Monsieur Prosper Profond; nothing could have been more favourable, for, in relating it, he regarded Holly, who in turn regarded him, while Fleur seemed to be regarding with a slight frown some thought of her own, and Jon was really free to look at her at last. She had on a white frock, very simple and well made; her arms were bare, and her hair had a white rose in it. In just that swift moment of free vision, after such intense discomfort, Jon saw her sublimated, as one sees in the dark a slender white fruit-tree; caught her like a verse of poetry flashed before the eyes of the mind, or a tune which floats out in the distance and dies.

  He wondered giddily how old she was—she seemed so much more self-possessed and experienced than himself. Why mustn’t he say they had met? He remembered suddenly his mother’s face; puzzled, hurt-looking, when she answered: “Yes, they’re relations, but we don’t know them.” Impossible that his mother, who loved beauty, should not admire Fleur if she did know her!

  Alone with Val after dinner, he sipped port deferentially and answered the advances of this new-found brother-inlaw. As to riding (always the first consideration with Val) he could have the young chestnut, saddle and unsaddle it himself, and generally look after it when he brought it in. Jon said he was accustomed to all that at home, and saw that he had gone up one in his host’s estimation.

  “Fleur,” said Val, “can’t ride much yet, but she’s keen. Of course, her father doesn’t know a horse from a cartwheel. Does your dad ride?”

  “He used to; but now he’s—you know, he’s—” He stopped, so hating the word old. His father was old, and yet not old; no—never!

  “Quite!” muttered Val. “I used to know your brother up at Oxford, ages ago, the one who died in the Boer War. We had a fight in New College Gardens. That was a queer business,” he added, musing; “a good deal came out of it.”

  Jon’s eyes opened wide; all was pushing him towards historical research, when his sister’s voice said gently from the doorway:

  “Come along, you two,” and he rose, his heart pushing him towards something far more modern.

  Fleur having declared that it was “simply too wonderful to stay indoors,” they all went out. Moonlight was frosting the dew, and an old sun-dial threw a long shadow. Two box hedges at right angles, dark and square, barred off the orchard. Fleur turned through that angled opening.

  “Come on!” she called. Jon glanced at the others, and followed. She was running among the trees like a ghost. All was lovely and foamlike above her, and there was a scent of old trunks, and of nettles. She vanished. He thought he had lost her, then almost ran into her standing quite still.

  “Isn’t it jolly?” she cried, and Jon answered:

  “Rather!”

  She reached up, twisted off a blossom, and, twirling it in her fingers, said:

  “I suppose I can call you Jon?”

  “I should think so just.”

  “All right! But you know there’s a feud between our families?”

  Jon stammered: “Feud? Why?”

  “It’s ever so romantic and silly? That’s why I pretended we hadn’t met. Shall we get up early tomorrow morning and go for a walk before breakfast and have it out? I hate being slow about things, don’t you?”

  Jon murmured a rapturous assent.

  “Six o’clock, then. I think your mother’s beautiful.”

  Jon said fervently: “Yes, she is.”

  “I love all kinds of beauty,” went on Fleur, “when it’s exciting. I don’t like Greek things a bit.”

  “What! Not Euripides?”

  “Euripides? Oh! no, I can’t bear Greek plays; they’re so long. I think beauty’s always swift. I like to look at ONE picture, for instance, and then run off. I can’t bear a lot of things together. Look!” She held up her blossom in the moonlight. “That’s better than all the orchard, I think.”

  And, suddenly, with her other hand she caught Jon’s. “Of all things in the world, don’t you think caution’s the most awful? Smell the moonlight!”

  She thrust the blossom against his face; Jon agreed giddily that of all things in the world caution was the worst, and bending over, kissed the hand which held his.

  “That’s nice and old-fashioned,” said Fleur calmly. “You’re frightfully silent, Jon. Still I like silence when it’s swift.” She let go his hand. “Did you think I dropped my handkerchief on purpose?”

  “No!” cried Jon, intensely shocked.

  “Well, I did, of course. Let’s get back, or they’ll think we’re doing this on purpose too.” And again she ran like a ghost among the trees. Jon followed, with love in his heart, Spring in his heart, and over all the moonlit white unearthly blossom. They came out where they had gone in, Fleur walking demurely.

  “It’s quite wonderful in there,” she said dreamily to Holly.

  Jon preserved silence, hoping against hope that she might be thinking it swift.

  She bade him a casual and demure good-night, which made him think he had been dreaming…

  In her bedroom Fleur had flung off her gown, and, wrapped in a shapeless garment, with the white flower still in her hair, she looked like a mousme, sitting cross-legged on her bed, writing by candlelight.

  “DEAREST CHERRY:

  “I believe I’m in love. I’ve got it in the neck, only the feeling is really lower down. He’s a second cousin—such a child, about six months older and ten years younger than I am. Boys always fall in love with their seniors, and girls with their juniors or with old men of forty. Don’t laugh, but his eyes are the truest things I ever saw; and he’s quite divinely silent! We had a most romantic first meeting in London under the Vospovitch ‘Juno.’ And now he’s sleeping in the next room and the moonlight’s on the blossom; and tomorrow morning, before anybody’s awake, we’re going to walk off into Down fairyland. There’s a feud between our families, which makes it really exciting. Yes! and I may have to use subterfuge and come on you for invitations—if so, you’ll know why! My father doesn’t want us to know each other, but I can’t help that. Life’s too short. He’s got the most beautiful mother, with lovely silvery hair and a young face with dark eyes. I’m staying with his sister—who married my cousin; it’s all mixed up, but I mean to pump her tomorrow. We’ve often talked about love being a spoil-sport; well, that’s all tosh, it’s the beginning of sport, and the sooner you feel it, my dear, the better for you.

  “Jon (not simplified spelling, but short for Jolyon, which is a name in my family, they say) is the sort that lights up and goes out; about five feet ten, still growing
, and I believe he’s going to be a poet. If you laugh at me I’ve done with you for ever. I perceive all sorts of difficulties, but you know when I really want a thing I get it. One of the chief effects of love is that you see the air sort of inhabited, like seeing a face in the moon; and you feel—you feel dancey and soft at the same time, with a funny sensation—like a continual first sniff of orange blossom—just above your stays. This is my first, and I feel as if it were going to be my last, which is absurd, of course, by all the laws of Nature and morality. If you mock me I will smite you, and if you tell anybody I will never forgive you. So much so, that I almost don’t think I’ll send this letter. Anyway, I’ll sleep over it. So good-night, my Cherry—oh!

  Your FLEUR.”

  Chapter VIII.

  IDYLL ON GRASS

  When those two young Forsytes emerged from the chine lane, and set their faces East towards the sun, there was not a cloud in heaven, and the Downs were dewy. They had come at a good bat up the slope and were a little out of breath; if they had anything to say they did not say it, but marched in the early awkwardness of unbreakfasted morning under the songs of the larks. The stealing out had been fun, but with the freedom of the tops the sense of conspiracy ceased, and gave place to dumbness.

  “We’ve made one blooming error,” said Fleur, when they had gone half a mile. “I’m hungry.”

  Jon produced a stick of chocolate. They shared it and their tongues were loosened. They discussed the nature of their homes and previous existences, which had a kind of fascinating unreality up on that lonely height. There remained but one thing solid in Jon’s past—his mother; but one thing solid in Fleur’s—her father; and of these figures, as though seen in the distance with disapproving faces, they spoke little.

  The Down dipped and rose again towards Chanctonbury Ring; a sparkle of far sea came into view, a sparrowhawk hovered in the sun’s eye so that the blood-nourished brown of his wings gleamed nearly red. Jon had a passion for birds, and an aptitude for sitting very still to watch them; keen-sighted, and with a memory for what interested him, on birds he was almost worth listening to. But in Chanctonbury Ring there were none—its great beech temple was empty of life, and almost chilly at this early hour; they came out willingly again into the sun on the far side. It was Fleur’s turn now. She spoke of dogs, and the way people treated them. It was wicked to keep them on chains! She would like to flog people who did that. Jon was astonished to find her so humanitarian. She knew a dog, it seemed, which some farmer near her home kept chained up at the end of his chicken run, in all weathers till it had almost lost its voice from barking!

  “And the misery is,” she said vehemently, “that if the poor thing didn’t bark at every one who passes it wouldn’t be kept there. I do think men are cunning brutes. I’ve let it go twice, on the sly; it’s nearly bitten me both times, and then it goes simply mad with joy; but it always runs back home at last, and they chain it up again. If I had my way, I’d chain that man up.”

  Jon saw her teeth and her eyes gleam. “I’d brand him on his forehead with the word ‘Brute’; that would teach him!”

  Jon agreed that it would be a good remedy. “It’s their sense of property,” he said, “which makes people chain things. The last generation thought of nothing but property; and that’s why there was the war.”

  “Oh!” said Fleur, “I never thought of that. Your people and mine quarrelled about property. And anyway we’ve all got it—at least, I suppose your people have.”

  “Oh! yes, luckily; I don’t suppose I shall be any good at making money.”

  “If you were, I don’t believe I should like you.”

  Jon slipped his hand tremulously under her arm.

  Fleur looked straight before her, and chanted:

  “Jon, Jon, the farmer’s son,

  Stole a pig, and away he run!”

  Jon’s arm crept round her waist.

  “This is rather sudden,” said Fleur calmly; “do you often do it?”

  Jon dropped his arm. But when she laughed, his arm stole back again; and Fleur began to sing:

  “O who will o’er the downs so free,

  O who will with me ride?

  O who will up and follow me—”

  “Sing, Jon!”

  Jon sang. The larks joined in, sheep-bells, and an early morning church far away over in Steyning. They went on from tune to tune, till Fleur said:

  “My God! I am hungry now!”

  “Oh! I AM sorry!”

  She looked round into his face.

  “Jon, you’re rather a darling.”

  And she pressed his hand against her waist. Jon almost reeled with happiness. A yellow-and-white dog coursing a hare startled them apart. They watched the two vanish down the slope, till Fleur said with a sigh: “He’ll never catch it, thank goodness! What’s the time? Mine’s stopped. I never wound it.”

  Jon looked at his watch. “By Jove!” he said, “mine’s stopped, too.”

  They walked on again, but only hand in hand.

  “If the grass is dry,” said Fleur, “let’s sit down for half a minute.”

  Jon took off his coat, and they shared it.

  “Smell! Actually wild thyme!”

  With his arm round her waist again, they sat some minutes in silence.

  “We are goats!” cried Fleur, jumping up; “we shall be most fearfully late, and look so silly, and put them on their guard. Look here, Jon! We only came out to get an appetite for breakfast, and lost our way. See?”

  “Yes,” said Jon.

  “It’s serious; there’ll be a stopper put on us. Are you a good liar?”

  “I believe not very; but I can try.” Fleur frowned.

  “You know,” she said, “I realise that they don’t mean us to be friends.”

  “Why not?”

  “I told you why.”

  “But that’s silly.”

  “Yes; but you don’t know my father!”

  “I suppose he’s fearfully fond of you.”

  “You see, I’m an only child. And so are you—of your mother. Isn’t it a bore? There’s so much expected of one. By the time they’ve done expecting, one’s as good as dead.”

  “Yes,” muttered Jon, “life’s beastly short. One wants to live for ever, and know everything.”

  “And love everybody?”

  “No,” cried Jon; “I only want to love once—you.”

  “Indeed! You’re coming on! Oh! Look! There’s the chalk-pit; we can’t be very far now. Let’s run.”

  Jon followed, wondering fearfully if he had offended her.

  The chalk-pit was full of sunshine and the murmuration of bees. Fleur flung back her hair.

  “Well,” she said, “in case of accidents, you may give me one kiss, Jon,” and she pushed her cheek forward. With ecstasy he kissed that hot soft cheek.

  “Now, remember! We lost our way; and leave it to me as much as you can. I’m going to be rather beastly to you; it’s safer; try and be beastly to me!”

  Jon shook his head. “That’s impossible.”

  “Just to please me; till five o’clock, at all events.”

  “Anybody will be able to see through it,” said Jon gloomily.

  “Well, do your best. Look! There they are! Wave your hat! Oh! you haven’t got one. Well, I’ll cooee! Get a little away from me, and look sulky.”

  Five minutes later, entering the house and, doing his utmost to look sulky, Jon heard her clear voice in the dining-room:

  “Oh! I’m simply RAVENOUS! He’s going to be a farmer—and he loses his way! The boy’s an idiot!”

  Chapter IX.

  GOYA

  Lunch was over and Soames mounted to the picture-gallery in his house near Mapledurham. He had what Annette called “a grief.” Fleur was not yet home. She had been expected on Wednesday; had wired that it would be Friday; and again on Friday that it would be Sunday afternoon; and here were her aunt, and her cousins the Cardigans, and this fellow Profond, and everything flat as a pa
ncake for the want of her. He stood before his Gauguin—sorest point of his collection. He had bought the ugly great thing with two early Matisses before the war, because there was such a fuss about those Post–Impressionist chaps. He was wondering whether Profond would take them off his hands—the fellow seemed not to know what to do with his money—when he heard his sister’s voice say: “I think that’s a horrid thing, Soames.” and saw that Winifred had followed him up.

  “Oh! you DO?” he said dryly; “I gave five hundred for it.”

  “Fancy! Women aren’t made like that even if they are black.”

  Soames uttered a glum laugh. “You didn’t come up to tell me that.”

  “No. Do you know that Jolyon’s boy is staying with Val and his wife?”

  Soames spun round.

  “What?”

  “Yes,” drawled Winifred; “he’s gone to live with them there while he learns farming.”

  Soames had turned away, but her voice pursued him as he walked up and down. “I warned Val that neither of them was to be spoken to about old matters.”

  “Why didn’t you tell me before?”

  Winifred shrugged her substantial shoulders.